On the ... nyampah ....

It is warm outside, while the fan next to me helps a bit to lower my body temperature …. Hot in my head because a ridiculous email that I received this afternoon, and other email that correctly answer my prediction, which is not good… but other email kind of cooling myself a bit, as there is some possibilities that still can make me sane ….. a dream that makes me feel that I have to hit my head with my monitor, but a couple text messages and a phone call keep my feet on the ground …. Yaps .. life can be like a signal without any possibility to smooth it out, or just like unstable numerical scheme where funny thing can happen …….. what we can do just simply give the best, even it is not the best for other people … and in the end, they just simply have to decide it for us … yes it is out of our reach in many time … but it is how the system work … it is a game … it is a bloody game … and to be honest I don’t like the game itself … even I hate the player more …. But what can I say, sometimes you just eat it up .. nothing is for sure … and sometimes I am wondering if everything is as fake as I see right now???


but at least one thing is for sure .. I am going to be awesome in one and a half month …..

ps. really strange dream .... why? it was more than 20 years ago I assume ...