On the .... today 190515

Morning ... 9 o'clock ... arrived in the office ... after saying "goede morgen" or "morgen" to a dozen of people, I turned on my computer ... first always e-mail and calendar ... luckily no meeting so i thought I could make a use of my time with finishing documents and a bit coding (what a boring SW people, start to hope if I will got a chance to do some CS, just temporarily ) .... but mainly what I expected from today is simply a flat busy day, no surprise, no disturbance (physically or mentally) … and then, just when I was trying to use a bit of my brain (I still have one though) … suddenly those funny unwanted thoughts suddenly came, without any reason … nothing triggered it what so ever (seriously ... I was staring at (mainly) emails  and all the working stuff on my screen) … so, in the beginning I thought that "feeling" will be gone as a fast as it came … however, (unlucky me) in the middle of my confusion (why oh why ...), I found this video out of nowhere … so yeah, uncontrolled thoughts and something that support it … not really a good combination … surprisingly, I had quite productive day (I don’t really know if it is because of “that”), and at the end of the day,  I am still alive  …. So what’s the point of this story? Just one, I miss someone from the past, and everything that surrounded it  ......

and this is the cursed video, and somehow I still play it until this very second ...

...aku cuma rindu .... itu saja ..