on the ... friend???

ok, maybe it is the last time i write about this ... but yeah, today i was a bit annoyed with something ... and for sure for me, it is the final dead end .... after maybe couple of years i was slightly expecting something maybe improved ... finally today is the final answer ...


as life full with some surprises, i had a bad experiences with someone close to me  before, in particular with the ones that i was romantically linked with .. and yaps, in many cases i was mainly treated unfair and disappointed ... but still ... i always have a soft spot on me (maybe it is my curse) .. so some of them can ended in the good terms ... ok,  i sometimes keep my anger but as time goes by, i anger can be also gone ... but by this one, i even cannot imagine .....it is about a person who keep saying "miss you" and etc, but the action is totally the opposite of the saying ... i was humiliated, abandoned and kicked out (beside very rude and ill tempered when she is angry) ... and for sure has no idea what so ever in treating people and giving sincere apologize .... her apologize after she "realized" about her mistakes was six months later, and for sure not really well educated on doing that (or probably it was her first experience... i don't know) ... and the way she wrote sorry with couples of texts showed no effort at all ... and of course i am questioning her purpose .... and seriously, is it that difficult to pick up a phone and simply say sorry???  that is the only thing i asked ....


year passed by and during my birthdays this person wrote a nice thing with the catchphrase "miss you" again .... what?? another simply empty word ... and the final one was yesterday, four months after that nice words, my fb was deleted from the list ..... and yaps .. i think it is the major answer of whatever happened in the past ....


like i said, i always a soft spot for everyone that i really care ... so for the last couple of years i was expecting some changes ... or waiting for something big comes so we can sort of reconcile in anyway (due to the objections of people around me ...) .. but yeah .. it never came, and i assume it will never  (even i know she was observing me from far away .. but for what???).. so yaps ... i close it here ... no more bullshit .. (even still .. i still have my soft spot) .. but by knowing her ... and how childish she is ... i assume it is very unlikely to be happened .....

in order to cheer up everything, this song just popped up ... so enjoy ...