On the ....

On the empty paper ……
almost the end of the year … start to evaluate what I’ve done this year … yaps …. like a common people do when they are welcoming the new year ……. sometimes it looks like a white plain empty paper if look back ….











some are deep disappointments … hurt… trying to hide myself from the reality .. trying to find my peace … reconcile …. looking for something ….. some did happen .. some didn’t …. some just simply a matter of dishonesty and lie … some just only about the longest dream i’ve ever had … and the other is a bad chemistry …. and at the end … it is just only me and myself ….. and for some reason .. some of the pain still stay …. so yaps …













it is better sometimes to leave it as an empty paper … so someday … I can fill it with something …. something better ....

On the entertainment unit …
yaps .. have been craving for a year for a new monitor …. for some strange reason, it has been my second priority to something that is less important (huehehehe .. as i remember, the reason was buying a new coat, traveling, buying a lens, or the most ridiculous one …. paying a phone bill .. huehehehehe) …. It is not the most luxurious thing actually … but somehow …. in a strange way .. it means a lot to me …..

On the work
It is going well …. almost finishing my first paper …. even I still don’t know if it would be accepted … lately it is become more and more difficult and complicated but interesting … I have nothing to complain about … I love my job …..

On the photography ….
suddenly I am interested with photography …. don’t know why .. but I become more and more passionate with this stuff … and for sure I will keep doing it …. at leas as a hobby … thanks to people who have appreciated my photos … bedank …

On the traveling …
to be honest I am not really a travel freak … but surprisingly I traveled a lot this year, more than I used to be .. don’t know if it is about pushing my boundaries .. or just simply trying something … but well .. it was a nice one .. even it almost made me filing for a bankruptcy … huehehehehehehe ….

On this holiday
tried to do some useful stuffs, such as working, or preparing for my dutch examination … but somehow I end up sitting in my desk watching teen movie (huahahahahahahahahaha), quality movies or rubbish movies … nice tough … I really distract my self and stop thinking about my work .. eventough I like it .. but sometimes .. the brain need a rest from stuff like that … so .. what teen movies should I download then …… huehehehehehehehhehe

On the expectation …
Not much … I just want to find something that is really important for me … something that is free from dishonesty and lies … something that is important for me .. something that can give me a peace … may the God has His bless on me for that …

Joyful joyful Lord, we adore Thee ......