On the ... losing my temper ....

strange thing happened to me yesterday ..... i was with one of my colleague .... talked about something unimportant ..... however ..... the conversation turned ugly because I was annoyed by some of his attitudes ..... probably because of the culture differences ... I don't know ... but there was a point that I lost a grip to my temper ..... I was quite out of my control ... and believe me it was not because of a good reason (sometimes there is a good reason to be mad) .... which is in normal situation can be easily ignored ..... lucky me I could control myself just after a few seconds ..... unfortunately, it didn't go unnoticed ..... but honestly ... I didn't even realize that my jaws was trembling by this .... and for sure, yes .. I was surprised ... I am even still surprised now that I could be that angry .. last time I was really that mad probably in last year .. and for sure that was for a good reason ..... but now? ... strange ...... was trying to think what could make me acted like that ... and somehow I just realize ... yes .. I still have anger deep inside me ... and lately it has been surfaced because of one stupid conversation (that for sure) ... can be avoided ..... but yeah ... not wise enough not see it comes ... damn ..... well ... hopefully I can forget it .. and calm my self ...... and may God still forgive me .. I try to forgive and to forget it .. but somehow .... I haven't completely worked it out ..... well .. I'm still trying .....

pics that haven't been published ... it is about the terezin concentration camp ... sad history.... and for sure not a hapy place to visit ... but you can learn something if you visit it .. learn to appreciate what God gives to you .... so be grateful of what you have now ....

thx Asti ... for the daily midnight laugh :D .....