just back from bbq party with some friends .... and as usual ... one of the main discussion was about how difficult for (some) people to stay here ..... it is not about how to adapt or anything .... but yaps .. stay in the foreign country for more than 2 years is not as easy as it look ....I consider below 2 years just simply a long vacation ... because mainly most of the Indonesian do is just traveling ... enjoying the trip ... take photos in famous places so they can put it in their facebook .....get their degree ... going home ... boasting about their achievement without even taste the cultural difference ... a nice new people from different background, ethnic, culture ... feel how ist really to addapt to new culture without making the "confortable zone" ........ which then ... the only question that what I want to ask is ....... what a hell you are doing here??......... but believe me ... the main struggle is after all that 2 years period .. the weather seems become more and more unfriendly ... people come and go .... trapped in a daily routine ... and yaps .. for sure ... loneliness can kill you here ..... so .. it is the real test for your maturity .. that is the real life ...... since believe me .. one really need to have an open mind if want to survive here ....
back to the bbq ... anyway .. it was nice to speak Indonesia sometimes .... heard some typical indonesian jokes ... ate satay ... talked about broken heart, friendship, religion differences, ethnic differences (which kind of always make me sick) ... talked about my friend's unsuccessful effort (huehehehe ... sorry ko) ... about the strange indonesian habit (doesn't make a sense.. that people that claim their self going abroad to become independent ... but somehow very childish) ... talking about the indonesian election (very funny ...) ... and yaps .....strangely it refreshes my mind and makes me think a lot about whether I will go back to Indonesia .... have no answer for that ... because I believe there is God's plan for me to be here now ... (and I believe I will get the answer in the right time) ... and for sure .. it can distract me a bit from some uncertainty that I face now ...... but yaps ... regarding all the shock that I got lately and all the rubbish that is always in my mind ... I enjoy my day ....
anyway .... another song from Josh Groban .... old song .. I remember why I listen to this song ... and yaps ... kind of feel it again .. I don't know ..... I just don't want to be in the similar position anymore ..... too much pain ...
If I could stop the wind of change.......
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