On the bad mood .....

Started this morning very annoying dream ...... woke up with that nightmare (God, it has been two and half year, why it still come haunting me??) ..... and then later this day with very difficult internet accesses ... mails from my boss and ex boss that somehow make me nervous and lowering my self-esteem ..... and yeah another thing that I don't know how to deal with .... I don't know ... what a day ..... I wish I could let it go ...... but here I am ... still in the front of computer ... waiting for something happen or so-called miracle suddenly appears ..... or whatever that can make he have a nice sleep tonight .....

..... Cathy, I'm lost, I said, though I knew she was sleeping
I'm empty and I'm aching and I don't know why ...........

America - Josh Groban

I miss the girl who used to stay in my place until midnight and drinks a lot (hehehehehehehehe) or call me at midnight .... cannot find her online anywhere .....